Friday, September 20, 2013

THEFEELIES/GROCKING/MIMIZINE?XXXistenZZ

they send me mind movies and  ocular over lays
 all day long
I love them most of the time

but they say this grouchy mean spirit
which is my "hardwired" mood
 since a car accident in 2000
and the Dystonia it "brought on(
"dystonia is a 'hinky rather untreatable movement disorder similar to Parkinson's ..except it is more internal less visable as the muscles do not so much twitch as freeze)
makes intraneural interface touchy bizness


it effects  the mandlers.when we interface in a way they have dystonia too.
get it
?maybe they can
use the read? the dystonia 
on some enemy..so maybe it's worth it to them

me.not so much
the dystonia doesn't show like it does amongst those afflicted by it.
if it did
people would keep more of a distance than they do..yeah that's how most people are I 'm afraid
you walkin all scurvy and wurvy down the street you bring down their"
" Presence"
looks are everything
appearance
you realize that when y get some
crumby movement disorder which I try to "mask" with drugs that make me even more moody than I already am

the mandlers in turn get moody
and wish I was more fun

the dystoinia moreso than my Mandlers
 effect my thinking
 my art
and relationships
the mandlers of course thing the dystonia is malingering
they think I am always "up to something"

it makes it hard to fuck as well
and
mandlers like a "proxy" who fucks and does drugs
it helps
the interface
Action

and action-y reckless behavior

but one becomes less and less fuckable in their 40's dystonic or not
and being on the pipe more consequential

one worries about teeth falling out
lungs and shit
but mandlers can care less..
as  mandlers get a vicarious ..high
what do mandlers care about
themselves and neural ,cognative and emotional neural spikes and data
duh.

they're like angels who don't answer prayers(or parents who don't send money) or wants

would it kill them to give me money?
seriously
this mind augment mind fuck is worth trillions..especially when you get to the overlays and the new tv..and it aint not holograms
cuz really who gives a good g-d damn bout seeing scarlett johansen in 3-d ..
different .though
if one feels and interacts with johansen or james "bankO" or some such "god"
via 5 sense ...up close inclose

a pony farm
they owe me for all the trouble these maniacs got me into

10 thousand acres and an art  studio filled with power tools a n assistant and my own gallery
these motherfuckers
 these men who wear on goats
believe in payback
only as it has to do with  "payback"
if my interfaces with them are aggressive or dismissive ..
they give me hell
the sending back and forth of visual imagery through chips and headsets is called brain computer interface or
"graphing"

it's simple now that bio sensors are nano sized and can just slip into some cold cream and shit

they use ya like a mini cam
you send them thoughts and more so imagery
everything
lately re focus on
Porn
and good thoughts about my mother and birds and bees
all at the same time

I am a tester
nothing more
no pony farm for dumbo!

I can't even get a puppie they say
or IT
(I) will be all about the dog
my thoughts
I can imagine them on headset hearing
"awwww little Elroy (the name of the presumed dog) such a nice pup"
no way Dumbo
we give you enough attention and you are OUR pup .OUR DOG

"it's bad enough" they say" that I still eat meat"
not cuz they care about my eating animals but the meat fiber that gets caught in your teeth the ..fuck I have gristle inbetween my teeth tongue poke poke
they are interfaced all that

duh.

artist lead sedimentary lives
many do
aint all fucking and drug taking
where these guys get their summations of types anyway huh..some damn 1950's movie?huh

 a difficult workin relationship
as I am a pig to them
concerning things like
grooming hygene
tongue poking to dislodge food.
it sicken them that still after 2 years" Caning "
I cannot
block food particle dislodgement (talk about hamburger hill ) or
 for instance a random thought about  all the transmitters satellites and direct energy *eapons and psycho tronic torture   just stopping and  m,aybe real aliens saying fuck this jive ..let's save poor dumbo and the rest of the targeted individuals and "bad people" from this mind fuck

..i write everything now
why hold back why write it as fiction
who the fuck believes me? huh

I am like a guinie pig in some endless maze
 for all I know I am simply just mad
possessed
or in communion with disorganized angry angels at this point
and not just psychotronically mista lawnmower man/Algernon /brainstorm/tommy walker  DDDDumbo!
sometimes
 as it is in my best interest   I take  the high road and go blow an older guy in a truck
usually one of them
stuff like that they dig

or go slamming things aroun d like Frankenstein in a frat house

anything actiony
like a super hero
if I hear a mean woman yell or  say abusive shit to a kid I am calledintuitively to action
and point my eyes like lasers
..I do not say a word
just fold my arms
and shake my head .No"
if I see a fight I leap to the weaker of the species defense and perhaps kick the other in the belly ..shhhhhhh

don't say a word..
my mandlers love my
sense of justice
except as it has to do with
them
and cybernetic mandling


to pay me back for my defensive kick kick punchiness aimed at the alpha male square jaw sand kick type...and or they're wives
I am treated for the hero I am by EVAN
who only asks that I
try to stay out of jail

(not easy,not possible...but I try..)
 


every now and than
I go to the truckstop or where ever and ....
give them some neural spikes that have more to do with ...entertainment...
and sometimes it's good enuf to just think them a clip
based on various hot guys I see around town

it's part of the "job"
it's what Parasol Pictures thinks will help
get consumers into
immersive reality...porn
now.

aside from direct neural porno all 5 sense on on on
you also "get a push" as the computer interface
not only raise or heightends reality with emotional peaks
but drugs
that the computer corrolates
that make the FEELING of cocaine,ketamine,heroin and DMT etc go Right up your amygdala
but without the bodily long term harm
THIS is the MONEY shot
of Brain Computer Interface

people call it a lot of things
these "drugs" that
help one get all unselfconscious and trippy

the mandlers and I have tried every substance under the sun
to make direct in your mind
mind to mind

or mind to computer sex
awesome

mimizine some comic book called it
feelies another serious writer called it
grocking another one called it...
get it
well you will

problem is they also developed the flip end of sex
violence for "the bad people" and intracranial experience of drugs that make you feel so bad or so sad you want to off yourself

ALSO THEY have formatted genuine overlays of real shaman
and very spiritual people ...
every damn thing you can imagine

remember that episode of underdog where that mean guy takes all the water.from all the oceans in the world?
and reduces them into little bottles
well
that's what they're doing with feelings
and cognitions
some feelings as you know are worth all the money in the world

and THAT little brother is what they're counting on
I call it reward for being treated like a monkey lab rat by these manics

now
another thing is
besides love interest like the bag boi or pizza boi
you can also
graph for a movie star you wanna fuck
and bamboo! there he or she is
in your face up your bum
down your throat

INT -PSYCHIATRIST OFFICE-DAY "The Mandlers"

SCENE ONE

so
mr dr asks
who is sick to bits by now hearing about mandlers
and nano chips
and RFD chips and implants they put in monkeys to see thru their eyes
and how they're gonna like make people into some zombie nation of avatars
I mean ...we already are
if you haven't noticed
aren't we
I mean isn't that why cops pick you up ..cuz you don't act like your supposed to..and I assume your mandelrs
don't like ya too much cuz you don't think like everyone else
but dude he says
you sound like my 5 year old nephew ..talking about some cartoon he's seen
after a while ya just wanna grab the kid and toss him in the other room
or tell him to shut up...

get it?
even if is happening you sound like a kid talkin about cartons you saw Saturday morning
and while people are patiently waiting for you to finish say yes go on what happened next
inside their like jesuis
whens he gonna shut up
or in your case GROW UP
and I don't know be part of the great avatar race
chips or no chips and
get a job
get your own place
drive a car
get a boyfriend
or a dog or something

AHHH shut up I say
I woulda stomped out the door but I wanted some meds

so you don't believe it's true
actuALLY I can believe someone would and will do these things
and yes they might need human experiments
and yes you were probably acting all aggressive or doing your misdemeanor stuff all over town and someone might of said look at the goofball over their...
no one would believe a word he'd say or something
you have that "look " to you
no offense
and somehow you've maintained some childman goofball dumbass qualities well into your 40's

"thank you ,I say

It's not really a compliment...you're don't work hard.you don't seem to talk much about anything but mandlers and youre probably not even a good fuck...
that's PROBABLY WHY THE MANDLERS are angry

you need to get fucked.
I can help you that



CUT the director says

take a break ,we'll start with THE DOCTOR's INTERN coming in and asking what all the fuss is about