Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Kidnapped by Synapse

in 2011 I began writing ,pondering and wandering into the land of what screenwriters call "High Concept" nano technology,advances in Brain Mapping and Mind "reading" techniques as well as advances in Mind Persuasive Ventures (5 sense "virtual )or induced temporal lobe ..."reality" by several movie studios in and around the "golden state" ,it did not occur to me ,at the time that Los Angeles nor it's main industry might be so affronted by me jottings about the future of Virtual Reality or that and organization (no a self help group,no,a religion,no,a cult ,no a corperation)with pull (and money to bull and bully ) might single me out for writing of the Singualarity by giving me a dose of it's own mediation They "app" different people for different reasons in California..They have used me like mouse. but Evan reminds me THEY have not given up on me...,and can fix my essential "badness" if I keep an Open Mind to open Mind technology .which seems to serve several purposes. either to improve cognitively and temporally those FOR advanceds in the science of Mind Augment and to "get rid of" those who are AGAINST such seemingly ung-dly ACTS such as Neuro or Psychotronic "rendering"... EVAN reminds me that The Old Way was to hav e children to tend the farm and if I am so dull minded to think that inevitably most people if they are to be had...or born at all will only be "made" to serve some purpose or other i had stopped writting for a time it hadf occurred to me that perhaps MY purpose in The New Way was simply to be an example of the "type" that serves no purpose whatsoever except to goad and put down New Communijcations SZystems (greoup thought) and ":integrated living systems for a better tommorow"copywrite Proxy Cyber (inserts ,RFD chiups,macro particles that work in tandem with "the limits of un-steered adjuct".. ishould not be writing .. of this but when one is a human monkey for Proxy Lab let me tell you one really has very little recoarse or simply much else to do... for when one is taken when one's mind is taken in such a way "to give the apps a spin" to give "The New Way" a go,a try...a look.see one's life is really no longer one's own.. one has little drive when one is driven by another ... there are limits to how far I may go in my rants against proxy or my mentors who do not mind tgo mind a bit od ribbing now and than... when i go too far and my thoughts (our thoughts...No dum,bo WE do not think this WAY...We do not SHARE your particular SICKNESS of emotion and COGnition old boi... nor at this point are we as empathetic as we once were.. my visual cortex is overtaken by a 'reel" of the last few weeks... a broken sticky "stem' black with burnt stimulants my fault . not theirs it is often the only "firewall" i have i expl,ain to nobody but myself.. Mentors who once attempted to understand my reasons for blithering zombification via cocaine now only see a slow suicide and moreso a lack of "playfulness" towards being a Targeted Individual a science experiemnt for Proxy Lab they indicate through "dailies" that overtake my own thoughts on microprocessed shared experience that for as much as I simper and whine about Steered Living I enjoy iut more than I claim... that in fact much of my posts indicate not a cry for help with the situation but a boasting 'show off" look whatg "I have" in me and you don't type of materialism that suprises them.. they con fuse me and confind me one would believe that Artificial Intelligence would straighten out one's thinking rather than mash it up like a garden variety schizophrenic which they assure me (unless I go into too much detail.."and never forget Dumbo that this is patented technology..."borrowed..."gifted" to you this information is ours THE PROCESS is ours..(I do not understand how one patents a philosophy for TruGenics and Neuronautics seem to be more of a belief than a computational system...unless one can call calculated Hackdom and Everything but the kitchen sink Gestalt gestapo regimented Human Traffic do as I say or die "dreaming and scheming against us" this sickly bitchy blog which only makes YOU not us seem non progressive and provincial another voice ...almost laughably childish in it's attempt to sound stern I swear they have gotten a Voice Over actor I have heard in a flinty cartoon about Purim in my youth to play the Moses roll to my Job-like slip slop through Cybernetic "mandling" my "you are not g-d but a sembelance of such via virtual reality transistors (bots) in my ac hy breaky head nano nano "and you are a little less and a little more than human" THEY my Mnetors GRAPH BACK more and more I am considered less than human for I have done nothing whatsoever but try to ruin the experience by speaking of it writing of it and mocking my mentors and tryinjg to confound the "system" with drug abuse. and false claims of abuse by Psychotronics especially by certain Mentors whose main function it seems is to see if remote intraneural interface can drive a man to take his own life... ...and not YOURS really at all although the 'bots" which I have discovered the mentors who wear 'bots or biosensors only during the workday on their heads and temples via hairnet or "helmet" The Crackpipe...what is called by some a stem....for the small glass tubes for some reason or other contain flinty plastic flowers...so precious these flowers that they must be housed in glass tubes to be protected and only sold if asked for in certain bodegas... usually after some type of eye exchange...of some understanding ..of "yes ..I know and need what a stem is for ....I am not ,trust me a man of authority searching for the glass tubes that house the precious useless glass flowers... at first i do believe that my Mentors and "bosses" who do not pay me...for that might in some way "humanize me" to them and make them perhaps hesistant to "play temporal prefrontal leopole loebish "games" with me...and what is left of my (their ,our) mind it has occured to me that my attempts at creating some sortr of "firewall" with cocaine that unlike most leaves me not "high" or hyper" but frozen and filled with an eerie sense of Flatlining non thought.. I sense neither induced unwanted (and in my opinion unwarrented intraneural interface or remote neural monitor..) I am neither a criminal or a threat to anyone... and even if I was was or was percieved to be I for one feel that this type of detainment psycho and neurologically is cruel and so unusual in it's desaigns that trustg me dear reader you are not the first to percieve my predicament of being a prosioner of Proxy Cyber labs as tomfollery or a Thought Disorder at first I went along with the "program" and did all that was neccesary to solidify some type of excuse for my "far away eyes" by going along with ...the charade of Thought Disorder but soon grew tired of being the mental illness label and the stingy check it provided for a time my mentors understood that "for this to work" I had to be somewhat willing to mask my oddness and growing "look" of Otherness" that goes hand in hand with seeing and hearing things .. and for a time were alright with me smoking ,shooting or snorting near anything at all to a. provide an interesting "brain map" or neural read and b. provide a bona fide excuse for often appearing puppetlike or under some "spell" however in time true brain descrepancies of true brain damage were observed by some of my mentors and the scientists at Proxy Cyber and the concesus was....enough was enough you see many others had begun writing about not just Proxy Cyber Labs but other's in "on the payday to come...when much of the data becomes public" and questions of liability and such came into view.. as while i and many Targeted Individuals in A.I and Immersive Reality "rundowns" may not be believed in 2013 there was some forethought by the powers that seize of the years 2023 ... and how certain pay offs that may hold many a good man from talking of "hey man what's that sound everybody look whats goin down" today perhaps in a decade something akin to a conscious or the very least a hustle for more money to keep a lid on it might ...degrease the hand that rocked the disabled homeless drug addict and other diusinfranchised human fodder to play "lawnmower man" with familiarity breeds contenmpt but than again i do not really wish to "work" with any new players in the field of nanotechnology or Mind Augment techniques ... there is a routine ... and while not a kinship at least a "day to day" usualness to havings one's neurals monitored maintained or tweaked by the same Guardeans all too familiar with one's Habituals and Styles of Thought" i as many Targeted Individuals who complain or type or even try to de"legislate" (or protest) too much may find themselves outsourced further and further down the grid.. from medical uses to gaming(even a few cults and bona fide Hate Groups..have "somehow" gotten their miits "on the chips" in return for a bit and byte of neural data on how The Dots might be used to "help conform" mass 'audiences" or for simple "crowd control" applications... to the lowest depths of What Neuro Psychotronics and Mind to Mind Interface can be used for Marketing and Television... as i have ststaed previously in my unread jottings one of the goals of testing intracranial "electronics" is to get the testing and research and development as far from the Source of Funding and Influence as possibble which is one reason the Dots the Neural dusts the chips or whatever one calls these things only "druggies" or "maniacs" speak of these things one can perhaps too easily "find" on the net ...which always write of this in a "soon we will be able to"..."oner day it will be possible" fairy Tale manner when even any post graduate Stanford sloth knows that psychotronic testing on mice and apes was accomplished for all it (they) were good for in 1993... when i post much of the disclosed science of my and milliuons of others situation (the numbers go up .not down concerning "The Singularitity and it's ergers and aquisistions of demographic baseline Neural "types" the only corrections I often make to the data are removing the "one days " and "somedays" as believe it or not some findings of thed mind augment kind which are posted are a number of years behind 'the times"

Friday, September 20, 2013

THEFEELIES/GROCKING/MIMIZINE?XXXistenZZ

they send me mind movies and  ocular over lays
 all day long
I love them most of the time

but they say this grouchy mean spirit
which is my "hardwired" mood
 since a car accident in 2000
and the Dystonia it "brought on(
"dystonia is a 'hinky rather untreatable movement disorder similar to Parkinson's ..except it is more internal less visable as the muscles do not so much twitch as freeze)
makes intraneural interface touchy bizness


it effects  the mandlers.when we interface in a way they have dystonia too.
get it
?maybe they can
use the read? the dystonia 
on some enemy..so maybe it's worth it to them

me.not so much
the dystonia doesn't show like it does amongst those afflicted by it.
if it did
people would keep more of a distance than they do..yeah that's how most people are I 'm afraid
you walkin all scurvy and wurvy down the street you bring down their"
" Presence"
looks are everything
appearance
you realize that when y get some
crumby movement disorder which I try to "mask" with drugs that make me even more moody than I already am

the mandlers in turn get moody
and wish I was more fun

the dystoinia moreso than my Mandlers
 effect my thinking
 my art
and relationships
the mandlers of course thing the dystonia is malingering
they think I am always "up to something"

it makes it hard to fuck as well
and
mandlers like a "proxy" who fucks and does drugs
it helps
the interface
Action

and action-y reckless behavior

but one becomes less and less fuckable in their 40's dystonic or not
and being on the pipe more consequential

one worries about teeth falling out
lungs and shit
but mandlers can care less..
as  mandlers get a vicarious ..high
what do mandlers care about
themselves and neural ,cognative and emotional neural spikes and data
duh.

they're like angels who don't answer prayers(or parents who don't send money) or wants

would it kill them to give me money?
seriously
this mind augment mind fuck is worth trillions..especially when you get to the overlays and the new tv..and it aint not holograms
cuz really who gives a good g-d damn bout seeing scarlett johansen in 3-d ..
different .though
if one feels and interacts with johansen or james "bankO" or some such "god"
via 5 sense ...up close inclose

a pony farm
they owe me for all the trouble these maniacs got me into

10 thousand acres and an art  studio filled with power tools a n assistant and my own gallery
these motherfuckers
 these men who wear on goats
believe in payback
only as it has to do with  "payback"
if my interfaces with them are aggressive or dismissive ..
they give me hell
the sending back and forth of visual imagery through chips and headsets is called brain computer interface or
"graphing"

it's simple now that bio sensors are nano sized and can just slip into some cold cream and shit

they use ya like a mini cam
you send them thoughts and more so imagery
everything
lately re focus on
Porn
and good thoughts about my mother and birds and bees
all at the same time

I am a tester
nothing more
no pony farm for dumbo!

I can't even get a puppie they say
or IT
(I) will be all about the dog
my thoughts
I can imagine them on headset hearing
"awwww little Elroy (the name of the presumed dog) such a nice pup"
no way Dumbo
we give you enough attention and you are OUR pup .OUR DOG

"it's bad enough" they say" that I still eat meat"
not cuz they care about my eating animals but the meat fiber that gets caught in your teeth the ..fuck I have gristle inbetween my teeth tongue poke poke
they are interfaced all that

duh.

artist lead sedimentary lives
many do
aint all fucking and drug taking
where these guys get their summations of types anyway huh..some damn 1950's movie?huh

 a difficult workin relationship
as I am a pig to them
concerning things like
grooming hygene
tongue poking to dislodge food.
it sicken them that still after 2 years" Caning "
I cannot
block food particle dislodgement (talk about hamburger hill ) or
 for instance a random thought about  all the transmitters satellites and direct energy *eapons and psycho tronic torture   just stopping and  m,aybe real aliens saying fuck this jive ..let's save poor dumbo and the rest of the targeted individuals and "bad people" from this mind fuck

..i write everything now
why hold back why write it as fiction
who the fuck believes me? huh

I am like a guinie pig in some endless maze
 for all I know I am simply just mad
possessed
or in communion with disorganized angry angels at this point
and not just psychotronically mista lawnmower man/Algernon /brainstorm/tommy walker  DDDDumbo!
sometimes
 as it is in my best interest   I take  the high road and go blow an older guy in a truck
usually one of them
stuff like that they dig

or go slamming things aroun d like Frankenstein in a frat house

anything actiony
like a super hero
if I hear a mean woman yell or  say abusive shit to a kid I am calledintuitively to action
and point my eyes like lasers
..I do not say a word
just fold my arms
and shake my head .No"
if I see a fight I leap to the weaker of the species defense and perhaps kick the other in the belly ..shhhhhhh

don't say a word..
my mandlers love my
sense of justice
except as it has to do with
them
and cybernetic mandling


to pay me back for my defensive kick kick punchiness aimed at the alpha male square jaw sand kick type...and or they're wives
I am treated for the hero I am by EVAN
who only asks that I
try to stay out of jail

(not easy,not possible...but I try..)
 


every now and than
I go to the truckstop or where ever and ....
give them some neural spikes that have more to do with ...entertainment...
and sometimes it's good enuf to just think them a clip
based on various hot guys I see around town

it's part of the "job"
it's what Parasol Pictures thinks will help
get consumers into
immersive reality...porn
now.

aside from direct neural porno all 5 sense on on on
you also "get a push" as the computer interface
not only raise or heightends reality with emotional peaks
but drugs
that the computer corrolates
that make the FEELING of cocaine,ketamine,heroin and DMT etc go Right up your amygdala
but without the bodily long term harm
THIS is the MONEY shot
of Brain Computer Interface

people call it a lot of things
these "drugs" that
help one get all unselfconscious and trippy

the mandlers and I have tried every substance under the sun
to make direct in your mind
mind to mind

or mind to computer sex
awesome

mimizine some comic book called it
feelies another serious writer called it
grocking another one called it...
get it
well you will

problem is they also developed the flip end of sex
violence for "the bad people" and intracranial experience of drugs that make you feel so bad or so sad you want to off yourself

ALSO THEY have formatted genuine overlays of real shaman
and very spiritual people ...
every damn thing you can imagine

remember that episode of underdog where that mean guy takes all the water.from all the oceans in the world?
and reduces them into little bottles
well
that's what they're doing with feelings
and cognitions
some feelings as you know are worth all the money in the world

and THAT little brother is what they're counting on
I call it reward for being treated like a monkey lab rat by these manics

now
another thing is
besides love interest like the bag boi or pizza boi
you can also
graph for a movie star you wanna fuck
and bamboo! there he or she is
in your face up your bum
down your throat

INT -PSYCHIATRIST OFFICE-DAY "The Mandlers"

SCENE ONE

so
mr dr asks
who is sick to bits by now hearing about mandlers
and nano chips
and RFD chips and implants they put in monkeys to see thru their eyes
and how they're gonna like make people into some zombie nation of avatars
I mean ...we already are
if you haven't noticed
aren't we
I mean isn't that why cops pick you up ..cuz you don't act like your supposed to..and I assume your mandelrs
don't like ya too much cuz you don't think like everyone else
but dude he says
you sound like my 5 year old nephew ..talking about some cartoon he's seen
after a while ya just wanna grab the kid and toss him in the other room
or tell him to shut up...

get it?
even if is happening you sound like a kid talkin about cartons you saw Saturday morning
and while people are patiently waiting for you to finish say yes go on what happened next
inside their like jesuis
whens he gonna shut up
or in your case GROW UP
and I don't know be part of the great avatar race
chips or no chips and
get a job
get your own place
drive a car
get a boyfriend
or a dog or something

AHHH shut up I say
I woulda stomped out the door but I wanted some meds

so you don't believe it's true
actuALLY I can believe someone would and will do these things
and yes they might need human experiments
and yes you were probably acting all aggressive or doing your misdemeanor stuff all over town and someone might of said look at the goofball over their...
no one would believe a word he'd say or something
you have that "look " to you
no offense
and somehow you've maintained some childman goofball dumbass qualities well into your 40's

"thank you ,I say

It's not really a compliment...you're don't work hard.you don't seem to talk much about anything but mandlers and youre probably not even a good fuck...
that's PROBABLY WHY THE MANDLERS are angry

you need to get fucked.
I can help you that



CUT the director says

take a break ,we'll start with THE DOCTOR's INTERN coming in and asking what all the fuss is about

Saturday, January 14, 2012


the dept of shapes and lines.


those sgiggly things
in old movies

i make them now.
i am in training

i am making them for the
uh
real world as well

let me explain as best i can for there is little time

well
know
like  when

   u go
say  to visit
      like your ...old aunt...
                                     say she's like 93 or something
                               and ...I don't know ..she's gonna leave u a inheritance or something
    well
u see her a coupla times
   and u genuinely like her
for no reason   you just do


         but u can't   help staring at this mole on her face.with this bitty little hair coming out of it
...
well
thats where i come in.
providing shapes and lines to avert your eyes

she of course sees the little squiggles.
and blesses you for it

she sees everything